I used to
think of writers as these amazing creatures who made up worlds and creatures
and characters. I was in awe of how
someone could “come up” with a story line or that amazing character or a world
that sucked me in.
Now I know
better. All my life I’ve loved stories,
partially because my family was relatively poor growing up, and I had to use my
imagination to entertain myself, but also because there is a deep seeded need
within me to “explore strange, new worlds.”
I was raised on a steady mental diet of cartoons and fantasy (thanks to
my dad), but unfortunately, I didn’t develop a true love for reading until I
was in my adult years. Sure, there were
the stories that I couldn’t put down, but those were so few and far between I
don’t remember most of them.
You see, I
actually hated reading in school (gasp).
There was a very good reason for this.
I have dyslexia. For those of you
who don’t know what that is, it means my brain sometimes mixes up numbers and
letters and generally makes reading comprehension hard.
Fortunately
for kids these days, teachers are trained to identify those with a “learning
disability” and are armed with the knowledge of how to help their students, but
when I was growing up, it wasn’t the thing to do. My teachers just thought I wasn’t paying
attention when I stumbled over words sometimes and couldn’t understand
something and assignment. The more
advanced the reading requirements became in school, the further I withdrew into
my head. I used to daydream a lot in
class. In my early years it was because
I didn’t get what was happening. In my
later years it was because I didn’t care.
I actually
graduated with a 3.8 GPA which was pretty good considering, but I could have
done better if I had known what was up with my brain. As you can imagine, studying was hard for me. I’d read the assignment and think, “What in
the heck did I just read?” It wasn’t
that I wasn’t paying attention. I
was. I just couldn’t figure out how to
retain what I read.
Eventually I
started reading aloud, which got me some raised eyebrows from my parents. To this day, I don’t know if they realize how
hard of a time I had in school, and that is okay. I did fine most of the time when it came to
grades, but I had to work hard to get those grades.
So fast
forward to adulthood. Like most people I
associated with, I didn’t really know what I wanted to do when I grew up, so I
went to college, got a job, and tried to make a living on my own. It wasn’t until after the birth of my
daughter that I started reading for fun.
Somewhere along the way, my brain seemed to have developed a way to
retain information. Probably because my
day job demands that I remember lots of information, but that’s another post
(grins).
The minute I
decided I liked to read, I couldn’t stop.
I lived at the library, borrowed books from family and friends, and
sought recommendations for the next big thing.
I devoured the Twilight books, the Da Vinci Code and Harry Potter. I read others along the way, but those were
the ones that stuck with me. Then I read
some romance books by an author named Karen Marie Moning. I picked up one of her titles on a whim and
read all of them in a matter of weeks.
When I was left wanting, I saw she had another title, Dark Fever, and
picked it up.
It wasn’t
anything like the feel good Scottish romances she had previously written. The book was urban fantasy, which I had no
clue even existed at the time. As I read
I kept waiting for the romance to happen and when it didn’t I was disappointed,
but those books had me hooked.
The mystery
surrounding the fae in the Fever Series was what sparked my imagination
thinking about them. In the Fever
Series, the fae weren’t pint sized winged creatures flitting about causing
mischief. They were dark and dangerous
and intriguing.
I thought
about those books more than any I had ever read. I became obsessed with “figuring out” what
was going to happen and joined the KMM message boards where fans can postulate
all day long about theories.
It was
through that contemplation that the spark for my own series came. It was really from one question: What if the fae were misunderstood?
My mind
began churning and pretty soon I was thinking about characters that had no
home. At least not yet.
One of my
good friends had been telling me for years that she wanted to be a writer, so
when I finally had a full formed plot in my head, I tried to give it to
her. I started out by say, “I have this
great idea for a book.”
Little did I
know that this particular friend was inundated with great ideas from her well
meaning family and she was sick of hearing about other people’s ideas. She turned toward me and said, “If you have a
story, you need to write it.” She wanted
one of her own, and now that I know what that means, I can’t blame her.
As you can
probably suspect, I went away from that meeting feeling deflated. My hopes for this burgeoning story inside me
had been dashed. The truth was, I didn’t
think I could write a book, yet I’d never tried.
The idea of
my fae story never being told was so traumatic for me that I said, “fine” and
went to work figuring out how to write a book.
My first words were awful, and since I don’t have access to the computer
I used back then, I don’t have to look at them anymore. But that was the beginning of my writer’s
journey. My husband would laugh if he
read this because he hates the way people throw out the term journey so often,
yet I feel the word expresses what I’ve been through, what I continue to go
through as a writer.
The truth
is, I love writing more than any creative outlet I’ve tried. It’s liberating to sit down and let a story
flow out of me, but I can’t say I created any of it. The characters have come to me, shown me
their homes and their lives and I have tried to capture their story to share
with the world. It’s a humbling experience,
and I’ve read other posts from other writers that say similar things. What I get as a writer is a glimpse of an
unknown world, a snapshot that I have to flesh out to make sense to readers.
As time
passes maybe I’ll begin to create my own worlds, but for now, I’m happy to be
an observer sharing these wonderful glimpses with you.
So have you
ever read a story that wouldn’t let you go?
Has your mind focused on something in particular? Who knows, if you stay at it, you just might
end up opening up the floodgates of story.
Once that happens, your life will never be the same. I know mine isn’t.
I grew up daydreaming about fairytales, and my love for discovering new worlds has never died. I am not one of those writers who always knew I would write. I thought that was what other people did until one day a few years ago, I took a challenge from a friend and typed my first words. My journey has been wonderful, and I cannot imagine a day where I would ever give up writing now. My love for reading is what fueled my imagination in the first place and still does. When I am not writing or reading, I am enjoying family time with my husband and two children. We live in a quiet community under the Wellsville mountains in Utah, and I am so thankful for the rich life I have been blessed with.
Thanks so much for having me here today, Monique! It was fun writing this post.
ReplyDeleteIf any of your readers are interested, my first book, Five, is free for download on all major eretailers. Happy reading everyone :)